CHASING THE GHOST: 2016 MFA Thesis Exhibition & Some Rambles About Decompression.

If you've been following me on my other social media platforms for awhile, you'll know that I recently finished my MFA at Edinboro University. Now that I've been out of school for two months, I figured I would finally sit down and hash out the post about my thesis show! My show, CHASING THE GHOST, served as the culmination of my graduate school experience. Rather than drive myself crazy with an entirely new body of work during my last two semesters of school (before your eyebrows lower into a regular position, note that some artists actually do crank out an entirely new body of work in 6-8 months PURELY for their thesis, and no, they're not crazy. People do it all the time.), I decided to include the best paintings from all three years of school. I felt it important to include pieces spanning from 2014-2016, as it showcased the progress I had made during my stay at EU, and gave the general public an example of how an artist's work can change with time, effort, and enough stress and anxiety to pull an 18-wheeler with your teeth. 

The setup and preparations for this show were relatively simple. I chose to work with PACA in Erie, Pennsylvania- they offered a wonderful, semi-industrial space that I thought would really allow my paintings to be viewed in a simplistic, yet professional manner. PRO TIP (although I'm by no means a pro): Find a gallery that is willing to work with you in terms of time frame and pricing. If you have to pay to rent a space for your thesis show (or any show you participate in), make sure you sign a contract with them that outlines prices and what they're for. My contract didn't include a pricing list (if I could offer the gallery any criticism, it would definitely be to outline all pricing in their contract, and to have it a little sooner than a week before an exhibition. The prices were MORE than excellent and affordable, but if you're like me and have to have everything figured out and outlined (in writing), it's very helpful to have that ahead of time for your artists). However, the gentleman I worked with was very thorough and explained everything I needed to know over coffee. Thanks, Mark! Here are some of the photos fro the show, I hope you enjoy them! 

Dead Weight and Into the VoidVortex, both sold!

Apparitions

L to R: Chasing the Ghost (NFS), Morning Glory, (sold) Morandi (sold),
Apparitions, Dead Weight (sold), Into the Void/Vortex (sold),
Ghost on the Stairs (sold), Tuesday Afternoon (sold), and Descend (sold)

These two paintings will never be for sale! I
did, however, place them together to show
the progress I had made during my stay at EU. Put My Little
Shoes Away (2014) and Chasing the Ghost (2016)

Shadowdance with A Lesson in Letting Go in the background.

Morning Glory, Morandi, Apparitions, Dead Weight, Into
the Void/Vortex.

The largest piece of the show, A Lesson in Letting Go.

L to R: Overhead, A Cutting of Ties, the Grand Allusion, 
with Put my Little Shoes Away and Chasing the Ghost
in the background.

Ghost on the Stairs (sold), Tuesday Afternoon (sold), Descend (sold).

L to R: The Great Epiphany (sold), Phantom Limb, Overhead,
A Cutting of Ties, the Grand Allusion (sold).

As many artists have discovered, the MFA thesis exhibition can either make, break, or do nothing for you at all. Luckily for me, the second of those choices seemed to be the outcome. I'm not saying that I had a Saville-esque experience involving my entire show selling out (I sold several and traded a few for other artist's pieces), but I did gain a sense of confidence and satisfaction that I had accomplished something bigger than myself.

EDIT: I realized after publishing this bad boy that I didn't even talk to you about decompression, and it's right in the title!!!! AHH!

Anyway, after graduation I used some of my time to just be. I decided that after graduate school, it would be perfectly fine to take a month or so off from painting just to collect my thoughts and plan my next move. If you know me well, you'll know that my next move was actually a month-long artist residency at the Vermont Studio Center! I'm here currently, settling in, blocking in a painting, and working out a concise blog schedule to keep you all updated more. Another pro tip: Be mindful of what your mind and body needs, and if you need time off from working, DO IT. You may feel like you're ready to claw the walls, but I promise you that it's beneficial. I'm someone who has a bit of a lazy soul- I'm not lazy in the slightest, but I do tend to get bent out of shape if I don't occasionally take time to just exist as a human in the world. I may be a visitor here, but my body is not- sometimes the body just needs a little time to pick itself up after being worked so hard. If you take anything from this post, take the advice of allowing yourself a break. <3

Untitled Life Post #2: Post-Grad.

You might have noticed that I've probably remembered to post to this blog about 15 times in the last two years... Oops! Consistency is something I'm only good at when I'm painting.. As for other aspects of my life, not so much.

But for real... WHAT HAVE I BEEN UP TO?

This is going to be a long post. I'm only a little sorry.... I'm not sorry.

ANYWAY, My last significant post on here was rounding up my MFA candidacy show in December 2014... Damn, how time flies! I'll try to update you as thoroughly as I can... A LOT has happened.

hung up (dad's shirt), 2015.

My Spring 2015 semester (post candidacy) was a great time to think about what I wanted to get out of my thesis year at Edinboro... I knew I wanted to continue with notions of absence and presence in my work, but I wasn't sure how to move on, as I was kind of over teabags (more on that later). After a few paintings that didn't work out, I took summer to research and really nail down what I wanted to communicate... Or what I thought I wanted to...

Close-up image of a teabag relic.

My summer consisted of both my first publication (of the painting on the left) in the Bridge Literary Arts Review (Oil City, PA,), as well as a show at the Graffiti Gallery in Oil City, PA, titled Junk IV. This show allowed for artists to showcase their pieces rooted in mixed media exploration- here are the three pieces I entered: TEABAG RELICS! I've posted a closeup of one of the relics for you to feast your eyes upon. I wasn't sure that they were successful for a minute, but the longer I hold onto them, the more I appreciate their presence in my process. Woo, alliteration!

The best painting from my
nose dive, "eddie vedder"

Fall 2015 started off on two left feet!! Though I was creating paintings, I wasn't creating anything worthy of an MFA thesis exhibition. To say I was creating shit might be a strong word.. But then again, it might not be. Many of the paintings haven't survived, as I've painted over them.. Some I've given away, and I even left a few in my studio when I left! Sometimes we make mistakes, and sometimes we derail completely and need smacked around by our grad committee (Disclaimer: My graduate committee never beat me, although I'm sure they thought about it, with a nose-dive so close to graduation.) What did I learn from that, you ask? That yes- you're going to make mistakes, and yes, they're going to be awful... But, guess what: It's gonna be alright. Get up and get back to work. After getting my wits about me again, I sat back down to my easel and looked at what had been successful in the past- teabags, of course! The main issue was that the surrogates I was choosing simply weren't communicating. You might ask yourself why I'm telling you about this brief moment of failure: I do it because I think it's important for future MFA-goers to understand that yes; not only will you fall on your face, but you'll fall on your face multiple times and even stay on the ground, trying to figure out why the hell you decided to leap into the frying pan of graduate school... I promise you, once you get out of the frying pan and get to work, everything is going to be fine.

MOVING RIGHT ON TO BETTER THINGS!!

One of my more recent teabag
babes, "Morning Glory" 

My last semester (this past one) was far more successful. Of course I had some hangups that I still had to iron out before my show, but everything went a lot smoother, and I was starting to see a little success! In January, I was accepted into the 11th issue of Fresh Paint Magazine alongside my studio mate, Josh Mitchel (website here). Later on in March, I was accepted into both the Vermont Studio Center and Sparkbox Studio, for July and October residencies, respectively. In addition to these wonderful things, I was featured in two "studio visit" style publications, one on Fresh Paint Magazine's website and Hyperallergic's blog! To say that I'm stoked is an understatement. As for how my thesis show went, I'll be doing a separate post on that, as I feel it deserves it's own recognition.

So, what's next? Well, I leave for my 29-hour bus ride to Vermont in a little under four weeks! (My car won't make it that far, but a Greyhound will!) While I'm there, I'm going to train myself to be more diligent about writing blog posts weekly, so that you all have a bit more to read! Motivation to write should come with motivation to work, but for me, it sometimes doesn't. Vermont is going to help with that, I think. The residency is a month long, and I was even lucky enough to have about 1/3 of it paid for through a work/study scholarship and merit scholarship! I'm super excited, as you can probably not tell at all. :)

Until next time!

Best, 

C.

Abstraction: The New (and perhaps final?) Frontier

My work has taken a new turn, friends! After those small studies from last week, I took the plunge into objective abstraction. Though this began as an assignment for my contemporary abstraction course, it blossomed into what could be the direction I continue to follow for the remainder of my time in graduate school (who am I kidding, this could change in ten minutes.. Bear with me.).

This new direction really allows for me to fully execute what I'm trying to say conceptually in my work- absense/presence. Time/space. Fresh memories/things we've forgotten. THIS has been a huge help for sure.

What's extra exciting about these pieces is that they're exponentially LARGER than previous posts' artwork. The first piece is 2x2', where this piece is even larger, at 28x32", I believe. I think the size really allows for the viewer to feel a bit more immersed in the piece, though I'll say that sometimes the wee little ones hold my attention, as well!

This piece is actually only 8x10", and though I wasn't happy with it at first, I can now see how size really doesn't matter (heh.) in paintings, as long as you can effectively communicate what it is that you need to say as an artist.

WOO! Again, thank you readers, for following me in my journey through graduate school! Side note- my birthday is a week from today. Only 6 days left of being 25!! Life is a wonderful thing.

XOXO,

C.

The Importance of Peanut Butter & Studio Tour!

Peanut butter. Always keep it in your studio for quick protein, unless you have a nut allergy... Then don't. Though I don't have it currently, I recommend organic and/or natural- less sugar and honestly tastes better than this Planters' crap I have right now.

This weekend was... Well, I can't come up with a more professional word for it, so we'll go with crazy. The Graduate Art Association hung a really great looking show (more photos this week, I'm so excited!), I cleaned my studio (as well as a terrifying prop room), and started a larger painting.

Also, the most important part: I finally figured out exactly how to put my paintings into words. The artist statement is real, dear readers. It's real, and here it is:

My work investigates the relationship between absence and presence, and how these separate entities work together to create memories in the human mind. These recollections allow us to hold onto important moments in our lives; much like the photographs and keepsakes we gradually obtain to remind us of occasions that matter.  In my paintings, I choose to work with objects of daily use that are not traditionally viewed as valuable, and compose them via repetition, obstruction, and various stages of resolution to persuade the viewer that these objects are of a more precious nature, much like the relics we collect for the same purpose.
 In my paintings, I hope for the viewer to take with them a quiet understanding of the impermanence of life; that every moment counts, regardless of its significance, and that before we know it, it’s gone.

I'm still going to continue to tweak it as time goes on, but for right now, I'm working towards keeping it simple. Before I choked that statement out today (seriously, it flew out of me faster than I've ever written a statement in my entire artistic career... I have a Bachelor's Degree, WHY AM I SO BAD AT STATEMENTS.)

I'm feeling good. So good that I also got around to taking some proper photos of my studio! I love to share what's going on in my life, including the space I work/essentially live in. Here goes!

This is the most important part of my studio- my easel and palette. What's really awesome about this part of the space is the easel itself- my grandfather built it for me last year, and I'm in love with it. Handmade ALWAYS trumps manufactured- it's unique, and made with love. That matters. It's also huge- that painting is 2x2', for some perspective.

Here's a photo of the painting- I'm excited about this one. I think the four little studies I did this week are REALLY going to feed the content of this piece.

That fabric, though. I'm planning to recreate a painting aI did last semester with it, as well as my mud-covered Doc Martens. It's gonna be a good time.

UNICORNS AND KITTENS ARE DETRIMENTAL TO THE SUCCESS OF THIS STUDIO. Also, magic legs.

If you haven't got one, buy a copy of Gray's Anatomy. It's wonderful- and no, I don't mean the television show... I've never even watched it.

So there we be! I work in a great space- it's not too small, and not too big; it's just right, which is exactly how I'm finally feeling about the direction of my work; and that's what matters, right? Right.

Until the next blurb,

C.